What I've found is interesting

A part of my hobby is taking picture with my camera,
well said I still not a camera freak...
I just more interesting with the effects
I do tried to do the effects on the photo with photoshop...

Well, I'm glad that I found I can do " PIKA PIKA " with my Canon camera and no need to use photoshop...

Some of my friend said I am too free to do this,
Yes, Actually I am...
I did want to have my interview for the job but stopped by my mum,
She said I should go for interview after I learn the car leasson,
that's mean I drive myself to go for work...
She just lazy and don't want to become my " driver "... Haha!

Since I was so free in my long long holiday,
I am interesting to do " PIKA PIKA " around these days...

What is PIKA PIKA?
Haha, check it out, it is light painting...
These is the PIKA PIKA that I've made...

Can figure out I painted " KOKHUA " ?

' Tu-lan ' leh...

I have a free ticket to go KL that my teacher gave me...
Not very sure that I could go or not because I really think this is not a right time...
I'm vexing about so many thing because I go there alone...

Well, I do have friend there that kindly can help me for place to stay,
but that probably the main point make me feel unhappy which I think I'm ' mafan ' them and I'm not very pleased with the ' friendly ' sound...
Well, I should not think like that coz I'm misunderstood but due to my personality that get mad easily, it is quite hard to comfort myself, this is my weakness and please forgive me...

Anyway, my teacher haven't inform me about the ticket also so I don't want to worry about that so much... If not then really spoil!

Today got the Christmas parade held at cityfan, I do really want join them but I could not manage to find someone to fetch me back home!!!
This is a mission impossible for my parent to ask them pick me from there...

These are really make me geram and unhappy, I just want to have joyful event during my holiday... Seems all became disaster!!!
Hate!!

I'm mad because I'm perfectionist so the little thing could get up on my nerves, isn't it???

Jalan jalan

Today I had go out with jade and poh ling ...
Actually we just want to attend the education fair at Grand Palaxe hotel as I wanted to know more about A-level, but we left and went for our ' jalan-jalan ' due to poh ling's information mistake, the event is on this Saturday...

My family went to Sibu yesterday, the Honda is left at my home so I tried to ask Jade to drive as she got her P liscence, then she drove and we had went to some places...

We went to Boulevard after the hotel, I went there just wanted to buy my chocolate bar!!
But I've found nothing...
But I met my friends who works as cashier that I worked with when I work as part time cashier last year...
They said I've change compared to my picture taken last year in cashier room with now...
Really? Haha!! Ngegeh jor me...

After that, we went to restaurant to have our lunch, then we 'hunt' for my chocolate bar again... Haha!!
But finally found it at Grace Grocery which located near my school...

Then, we decided to go back home...
The road from my school until the traffic light is a very long and straight, so I asked Jade to let me try to drive the car, well of course I'm nervous, but it is better when she taught me to drive...
" wow wow wow!!! Is it right? What should I? What should I ?!! "

So funny...

Today is the day which I used my mum's car, and I quite scare because I didn't ask for her permission...
I'm a bad son today...

Usually I am?? Hmm.....

Speechless

Since when I don't confess my stressness or what I angry for and forth...
So I just don't know why I'm not able to talk and confess to somebody when I was bad mood...
I even don't want to talk anything...
This wasn't me like who I am on last year who really always want to confess not even one person...
I've changed along with every single day growth

Maybe I felt numb...
I did not cry for so long...
Is my feeling numb or I am tough enough?

I know that person was here, I don't have the suffering feeling on it anymore,
but I still not that dare to walk or even pass by at where that person is...
But still, I'm glad for it so far...

There is so so so many incidents happened to push me in hard condition...
Last time I just about suffering for almost 6 months, an half a year!!
Still, the friendship and family was in trouble at the same time~

Happening on this year which I sitting for my SPM!!
That's why I really really wanted to cry that I do not do well in my paper especially science subjects that could judge me and decides me to apply for A level! which I craving for it so bad!
This is the only way to achieve my dream...
Maybe this is what could effort me to make me tough...

But anyhow if the SPM certificate was a disaster...
It could really screw up my whole life and spoil my dream and then my whole life will become disaster!!!

Why me?

Love you till the end

I just wanna tell you Nothing you don't want to Hear
All I Want is for you to Say
Ohh why don't you just Take me where I've Never been before
I know you want to Hear me catch my Breath
I Love You tell the End
I Love You till the End
I Love You till the End...
-Thanks B

A whole new start with this song...

well psychological prepare

Am not done well in my paper so far...
Quite sad and disappointed, most geram is my careless mistake...
And I know I'm not done well in my BM and BI paper...
Probably won't get A or even B...
I know my Mathematics I done many careless mistakes...

Now having psychological prepare by keep comfort myself there is nothing to care about the results of SPM...
But maybe I'm under a stress condition, that's why i really vexing about these...

Be honest... I just don't want to see Moo~'s cocky face when she really get a good results or better than mine...
And my parents given me so much of hope, it is so stress to achieve them...

However...
I really really really done my best on exam,
even I don't have A, i really do need B or even C...

Just regret why don't I hardwork last time and kill my laziness...

1 day to go -- Tomorrow is SPM !!

Last night I spent all my time with my friends for study group at koh sing's place...
They studied komsas BM while I was studying my sejarah...

Sejarah is sooooo HARD, especially hard to memorise it!
From day to night,
I've studied non-stop at night, they studying English and I still reading sejarah!
My friend slept in front of me but I still studying my sejarah!!

" don't stress out, if you really tired, please go sleep..." Said koh sing,
But I still insist want to continue my study even I really sleepy...
because I totally nervous breakdown about coming SPM!!

Well well...
At 3.30 a.m., I woke koh sing from her sleep and said " Hey, I sleep beside you..."
Then I woke up at 9 on this morning...
After brushed my teeth, I continue my study again, until I came back home...

Arghhh!!!!!

2 days to go -- Full time

2 days left...
It's mean that I still have only 48 hours for me to prepare all the thing...
Sure I need to study again and I have to make sure all the thing like pens, pencils, ruler, calculator, bla bla bla...

First day is BM paper and Sejarah paper 1, secone day is English paper and Sejarah paper 2...
Honestly, I really nervous...
Like that " Moo~ " said : If you prepare enough, what you scaring for?
ya la... She's right...

Just now my mum have an appointment with her friends to go shopping and ask me to look after for my brother...
And I said " Hell NO!! I have to study!! "

Well...
So long, I have to stop here...
Tadaaaa~~~

3 days to go -- To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow

Arghhh!!!!
Last night I was so tired and slept at 11.30 p.m. , then I was set alarm about 1 a.m. to wake me up to continue my study...
I set 1 a.m. , in case if I want to sleep again, I'm sure that I will off the alarm, so I set again the alarm in between 1.30 a.m., 2 a.m., 2.30 a.m.... But I'm still didn't wake!!!

Ohh... My sejarah ~~
I need to know them well!!

This morning I woke up but there's nobody in the house...
My family went to restaurant to have their breakfast...
Ok, I was waiting for them to " tapao " for me, But then they came back with nothing!
Just a word " Forgot " from my mum...

Then I beg my mum to bring me went to restaurant again to treat me eat...
Hahaha!!
I don't want to waste my time so I brought my notes to the restaurant while waiting for my food to be serve...

There's only 3 days left for me to study...
I have to memorise Sejarah, Komsas BM and English Literature...
I've not allowed to sleep tonight!!!

4 days to go -- Slow ??

I didn't update my blog yesterday!!
Aduhh... I missed up 1 day, but the " 5 " is such a beautiful number...

Anyway, it is passed...
It's mean that the time is passing so fast and now is 4 days left!!
The first day of SPM is BM and Sejarah paper...
Today I had studied from 11 a.m. to 4 p.m. , NON-STOP!! But I realised I just studied only 1 chapter!! My God! Read + Understand + answer question = 5 hours???

NO!!!
The time is not waiting for us...
I have to fast fast fast!!!

I have to continue my study, Before my laziness come to hug me, hmm... they love me so much !
I cannot slow, I have to study as much as I can!

6 days to go -- restu ilmu

Today is the last day I met with the teacher, after that I will have my SPM on next Wednesday...
All hopes was given by teachers and Principle told the rules of SPM...
The subjects teachers gave the tips for us to study...
Lastly, We all shake hand with teachers of course with Principle...
Principle was so sayang students, she guve a big hug to the girls...
What a touching moment, I saw my classmates cried~
But I'm not.... Hehe!

After that, I was buzy with taking pictures with my classmates and my teachers!

 My Chemistry Teacher - Miss Ivy Foo

My Lovely English Teacher - Mdm Christina Lau

  My Physics and Additional Mathematics Teacher - Mr Wong Yiik Hoon

The most optimistic Bahasa Melayu teacher -- Puan Ratnawati

The best Mathematics teacher -- Mdm Anne Kiu

" Wish you all the best ah... Try all your best a... kokhua! "
All the wishes by my teachers, almost the same... Hehe!

7 days to go -- 1 week to go...

Today I go to school, I planned wanted to study and don't want to get influence by my classmates...
But I can't do it... Haha!
Today is the last day we sit in our class,
I brought my camera to school, and took many pictures and keep it as sweet memories...

This whole day, I think like why teachers no teaching today?
Like forget about SPM, or they think we not take importance of SPM?
I DO!!!

Today I was study biology and sejarah...
Arghh !!!
Hard to memorise all those notes!
Now what I have to do is keep read the Tips based from their discuss and research...

Well, I think no sleep for tonight...
Have to study biology as I need to give back Zaimah's reference book...
TADA~~

8 days to go -- Self- study

Today I did'nt go to school,
as I heard my friend all stay at home to study
Will I ?

Now it is 8 days left,
For now on, I just read all the pages of reference book...
When SPM, I just doing my best...
Hopefully miracles could happen...

Now I should motivate myself by thinking my future...
Aduhh~~
Now all I need to focus is study study study!

9 days to go -- Here we go...

Wow! Day by day, it is the day to have my SPM!
9 days! with single digit!
Suddenly felt the SPM is SO close!

What should I do?
I just non-stop reading books,
But meanwhile chatting with classmates today...
Yeah~ I'm talkative person...

Everytime I read the books, notes given by teacher or get from text books and reference books, but when I saw the question, I completely blank...
Just like Chemistry exercise gave by my teacher today...
Still so many question that need to ask my teacher...

Hmm...
Today I'm emo emo emo!
Because of my problem la~
I keep avoid to mention those shit thing...

Focus to my study!
PROVE!!!

10 days to go -- Relax ??

Finally I can online after I called TMNET service centre and asked for help...
After followed his direction, it's finally works!
I don't want to miss up the day to update my blog...

Well, today is Sunday!
Mum woke me up to and ask me to go out for breakfast...
While waiting my sister to finish her bath, I use the time to read the books...
My mind still blur blur but still force to read!
Haha~

In afternoon, honestly I didn't touch my books at all!
I really really want to rest and relax!

I knew it has no time for me even to stare blankly!
And sometimes I knew that I could not get the top results
Very upset because of these, and it make me stress out!

Just try my best...

11 days to go -- continuosly

Woke up at 9 in the morning today...
It is quite late for me, as I din't wake on midnight even I have set the alarm in two different times!
I have to bath, eat and clean my room, even now still messy...
It's been 11 am now! And the stupid line was work now and I quickly update my blog... hehe


I wanted to study non-stop, if not my laziness will start to "attack" me!
What for today? Physics again?
hmm~ will study till what time?
Non-stop 5 hours? 6? 7?


As hope today will not seduce by the " media massa " in my house!
Clean up my mind of thinking nonsence!

Fuhh~~
I have to continue my study now,
But let me finish my ice cream first! Huhu~~

12 days -- " Steal " the times

Don't know what happen to the line...
These few days the line always losing its connection...
That's why I can't update my blog yesterday...

Well,
as times flies, today is the 12 days to go for my SPM!
I always use the time that could probably get me as much as knowledge into my brain!
Such...
I get up at midninght to study, I go to school early and study in the class,
When recess time I brought my books down to read,
When teacher was writing words on the blackboard, I was reading even it only 3 minutes!
When waiting for the car, I took out my book and read read read!

My moral teacher ask us that why we attend for school as many of my classmate absent for the school on thses few days...
Hmm...
I have to get up to go to school because sure I will be lazy at home as so many " seduction " from of cause computer ( internet ), television, and phone ( sms )... Hahaha

Can't wait for " Merdeka " ~!

14 days to go -- 2 weeks !!

I keep blame myself that keep sleepy in class,
sure cannot let anything get inside to my mind!
I still keep looking for the simple or tips or secret for exam...

Most serious is my biology...
I keep read but nothing to understand!
My biology sucks...

I keep saying " I will not touch Bio anymore after my SPM! I will not touch Add math anymore after my SPM! I will not touch..... ARGHH!!!"

stressing! Sejarah and moral also need to keep read and memorise it...
Should I get memory plus pil?
hmm...

I probably should keep read, keep doing past year paper
or even searching for prediction from candidates...

Lol...
expressing stress with count down for SPM~

15 days to go -- keep it up !!

" Wah~~ you've chenge your name already a? why suddenly become so hardworking? "
Suk Ping asked me as I was sitting beside her today,

" You too mar~ " I replied...
" If we can hardwork like this earlier then will be good! "

Haha...
It is useless to talk about this again...
Only 15 days left, time is running up fast!
I keep take the time to study study study!
Almost want cry ...
This is what I have to " pay" !

Keep doing chemistry, Add math, biology, physics...
Arghh~

Have to sleep now, later have to wake up midnight to study again...
To avoid disturb from family...
They noisy with watching Tv, brother cries, sister plays...

have to study at midnight...
Tadaa~~

Tomorrow 14 to go...
wuwuwuwu~~

16 days to go -- Hopeless ?

" 16 days to go " have wrote by me on the blackboard,
have to remind ourself that SPM is getting nearer!

" Haaaaaaaaaa? only 16 days left to sit for SPM ??? "
Please la 38 girl, you just know about that a?
how many days you want to expect?
Actually I'm nervous about the days is less by every minutes!

Today I'm doing my biology revision...
Wow! the words came out from my mouth...
" What the hell they talking about?? "

Hmm...
As the students who was so lazy to care about my study,
Hopeless!

Fiuuu~~

17 days to go -- late ?

Am doing revision for form 4 in reference books...
Always think about the days left that only with 18!
I think that is late for me to really can memorize everything into my brain...

Well...
Kinda upset for sure because I have forgot everything, I didn't really concern about my study...
Wondering why there are so many hard condition towards me all day long in this year...
I'm regreting!
You guys never know the hardness cannot make you completely concerntrate on study or everything...
Probably that is my excuses due to my attitude?

What will totally cover my laziness?
Haiz...
Have to force myself!!

18 days to go -- when the number......

...... start with 1, but the following is not 2 digits!
Arghh~ I wish it could be 3 digits...
190 days left?
stop dreaming!

Today I woke up late in the morning because I watched " The exorcism of Emily Rose " on AXN in the midnight, slept at 3.30 am... Haha!

Well... wope up, bath and have my breakfast...
I should go for my revision...
Damn now I'm sleepy!
What a nice weather for us to sleep...
Stop raining please...

What for today?
My chinese homework not completely done yet...
My moral exercise not done yet...

Let it be!
Hope I will be fully concerntrate on my study today...
Hopefully my family won't make any noisy today, especially my little brother...
Any idea to make him stop when he is crying?

19 days to go -- Start?

For all sitting for SPM students...
20 days left for we all to prepare all what we study and getting to " fight " for it!
Everybody was giving hope for these...
From kindergarden to primary school, from primary school to secondary school then before go for the society, all was depend on the SPM result!

For me...
Hmm~ Actually my result in trial 2 is bad... DISASTER!!!
I'm not ashame to show my result here... Ermm... Should I shame on it??

Based on my school standard
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Bahasa Melayu - 55 ( C+ )
Bahasa Inggeris - 65 ( B+ )
Bahasa Cina - 67 ( B+ )
Pendidikan Moral - 46 ( D )
Matematik - 62 ( B )
Matematik Tambahan - 26 ( G )
Sejarah - 18 ( G )
EST - 61 ( B )
Fizik - 44 ( E )
Kimia - 27 ( G )
Biologi - 24 ( G )
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I know I know this is the worst result that you ever seen...
Now I have to fight for it too!

Errrrr~~
Hope so...
hehehehe~

I have to fight for the weakest first
and arrange my " schedule "...
LOL~

See what will going to be on my SPM result
Will it change?
Better or Worst than that??

深夜

夜深了, 我还没睡
常常觉得深夜好像就是属于我的时间
没有父母看无聊节目所发出来的声音,
没有弟弟妹妹的噪音
可以一个人安安静静做自己最想作的事情
尤其是看电影
安静地看, 了解电影情节来的更深, 更能投入电影里面的情绪...

深夜里, 躺在房间里的床上对着天花板发呆...
想来想去, 还不是想念某某人
不知道为什么, 我总是在深夜里特别想念人
脑子特别活跃地去想我和他所经历的事情...

深夜也是一种寂寞,
没有msn, 没有sms, 没有Facebook...
我最多能做的事情, 就是思念
有时还会流眼泪...
很可笑吧?

不管怎么样, 深夜里的我仿佛不是原来的我...
其实我也可以有人格分裂嘛! 哈哈!
白天很深夜, 两个不同的时间造就不同的我...

或许深夜的时间是让我可以放下所有的坚强,向 "安静" 发泄...

失去

之前看过泰国同志电影 [ 暹罗之恋 ],
里面的男主角说了几句台词让我很感动

" 爱一个人, 就要承受离别的那一天,
而离别却是生命中都要经历的一部分,
我们可以活着, 而不去爱一个人吗? "

我很怕失去, 尤其是一种关系...
亲情, 友情, 爱情...
失去就代表痛失...
造成心灵上的创伤...

我们是因为太依赖他们的存在, 还是习惯有他们的陪伴?
失去了, 是害怕寂寞, 还是思念之前曾经所拥有的快乐?

当感情逐渐变淡的时候, 我似乎可以感觉到,甚至是预言到我跟他之间的友情即将结束...
或许他可能真的很忙碌, 或许他已经没有兴趣, 或许他已经...
很多个或许, 我可能都意想不到...

我该感谢上帝, 感谢上帝在我难过,无助的时候派来的守护者吗?
还是他就是一个一时的缘分, 在你的生命里逗留一会儿的乘客?
或许失去, 也是一种缘分?

Sleepless

It's been a while I didn't update my blog...
I really had no idea to talk about what
Hmm... Let me think...
Should I just talk about my lifestyle for everyday?

Come on...
For just a 17 little boy that had to sit for his SPM, everyday just sit in front of computer to watch movie, sometimes just msn chat with friend, Internet windows always just Facebook-ing...
What special for these lifestyle?
And who'll care?

After something that happened on me at couple months ago,
I've lost my innocent to write any naive essays...
Plus, my english was not good, why I want to post my bullsh*t...?

Haiz...
Am really love my blog so much...
sorry to kokhuamoment ~
here sayang sayang... ^^

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such a big change of moodI'm a weirdo ...

谁

世界上有这么多人口...
你是谁? 我在找你...

Move = Leave

" Tony, I don't want to stay Miri anymore... "
" So do I, "

On the way back from playing badminton, I told Tony Hii my mind...
Yes...
I really don't want to stay here anymore...
Just like Tony Lam said, Miri so sien a~
Hahaha~ I agree too...

Just these half year...
There are so many things happened, make me tired...
All was connecting to many people...
That's the reason make me set up my mind to move to somewhere that everybody don't know me, and start a whole new life...
Changing myself...
Asking meself " Am I? No, I'm NOT !!! "

I really hope I could go to somewhere,
taking a whole new fresh air...

Class Party

I am wondering why they held the party at Pantai Lutong...
This place is not the majority la~
I know la, those who ride motocycle...

Anyway, the time is set on 7.30 a.m. leh~
So early, as I aslo don't have transport to fetch me there...
That is impossible mission to ask my mum to get up from bed to fetch me go there~
So, Zaimah fetch me...
On 7 a.m.!

When we arrived there, there's some of our classmates already been there waiting for us... We aren't the earliest... Haha!

So early reach there, May, Lee, Ee Ling and I don't know what to do
So we just walking...
Walked here and walked there, taking pictures~
For about 2 hours!
You know why?
Because after 8.30 a.m. the BBQ charcoal haven't buy yet!
It's supposed to start by 7.30 a.m. !









Until around 9 a.m. , They started to BBQ, I have help them la...
Just don't have take picture about those food... hehehe~ ( just realized when arranging photo )

But after that I still keep taking pictures with my friends...







After a while, They still cooking...
And it starting to rain!!!
OMG~ The wind also blowing strongly~









Well... when raining, we just hide into Tang Ing Hong's car...
But still, we havent eat!!!
So hungry on that time...
After rain, we go there and help them cook...
( because they cook so slow~ )
After eat, I just play play there...
A while, walking, a while again, listen to Ipod~
hahaha~





Too bad, Lee and Ee Ling did not eat anything then just go back...
But on 12 p.m. Tony Lam, Tony Hii and I eat our lunch in restaurant...
Then we went to play badminton...
Still, they stay there until 4 p.m. siao~! hahaha!
Anyway, we have a good time there~

loser

Just hard to write on my blog about this...
I really upset and sad about this...

I went to Mega Mall on yesterday,
I saw that person... just called "D"

I'm not sure whether all those memory came back or I still not completely let it go...
But all I know is...
My heart was so pain when I saw D...
I was just cut my hair and ready to have a great night shopping with Tony Lam and Tony Hii... But D make me cannot concentrate to do everything...

Until today...
I thought I was " escape " from that suffer,
but why still am I to feel that way? It's hurting me...
I was thinking the time...
I think the time when I'm crying, when I'm sad, when I'm no appetite, awake from hurt, sleep with hurt...
All those shit thing I really don't want to let them happen again in my life!
I'm spending almost half year to recover that sad feeling...
I am so Tired!

I ask myself non-stop, why I punishing myself under D's fault?
WHY WHY WHY?????



I also wondering that is God punishing me now?
I really don't want to see D again,
I really don't want to have this fated again...
I don't want to back to that suffered life...
I don't want to be a loser!
Please let me free...

一样的夏天

一样的夏天

歌手：孙燕姿 专辑：Leave

作词:Joy 作曲:陈达伟

窗外的雨刚刚停 午后气息浓浓地才散去

迷迷糊糊张开眼 刚刚的梦我似乎在瞬间看见你

Oh my god 已经 不知多久没想起

Oh~ Oh~

我淡淡地想着你 那年夏天最后的那一天

你轻轻地唱着歌 未曾感受的温柔模糊我的双眼

终于也可以 开始一个人看明天

Oh~ Oh~yeah 你放下我 走向前

Oh~ 不见 不见了你给的回忆

为什么 曾经深刻的消失了 没有原因

我的心已经 没有想起你的空隙

Oh I~ 没想起不是忘记

OH I~没想起你是平静

想起了你 是想起那样一个夏天

Blood donation

As I said, I have donate my blood on last Saturday...
I never thought that I can donate my blood!
I am so proud of myself~ wahaha!

When I go to school, I met my mathematics teacher, and she said " Kok hua, you come to donate blood or come to receive blood? you're so thin leh~ "
Mdm Anne~ here I am to donate my blood... neh~~
hahahaha...




I'm not nervous~ haha... Just sit there and wait~~

here we go!! wakaka~ Actually it's not hurt...

Well~ done of the blood donation...
See my blood there?
haha! I'm O type~

My class got 8 student volunteer to donate their blood...
But only me, Fridaus and Reynaldo can donate...
Yeah~ Peace!

Start of a whole new month~

It's the first day of August today...
Haiz~~
Seen my July post only 4 post...
I really have no idea to post...
sometimes really lazy and busy...
Plus, I always have no mood to post,

Anyway...
I should always post new in blogger now,
Although my blog was not famous and nobody coming here~
That's mean I express my stress and talking bad about someone also doesn't matter lor! wahahaha~
I just kidding la~

Well...
It's August now...
Honestly, I still under prepare for my SPM~
Haiz...
But now I'm trying hard lor!

Today I have go to school for...........
Donate Blood!!
I can't believe I make it!
Wooo~~~~~~~

Today's activities............

is I went to Parkson actually is for watching Movie only...
But seems May and Ah Hui have there bowling competition,
as her friend, I should give them support!
So there was me, Zaimah, Dorina and Flora give them support~

When the competition start...
May start to throw her ball to the lane,
if there is not all bit down, she is going to be crazy!!!
OMG! May is very attached importance to bowling!!!

Today I watched Harry Potter 6,
First I worried about myslef that if I don't understand what the movie telling, because I didn't watch the previous 4 and 5...
In other hand, My facebook friends was post on their wall that telling the Harry Potter 6 is bored~

But in my opinion,
I think thats great!
I should recommend it~

it's changed ~

I miss what we did in Curtin University...
There's a lot of memories that I always miss it...

But why now become like these?
My heart was so pain and cried on that time~
14 July 2009
I will never forget the situation that happen on that day...

I Love Black & White

Me and Silvester having great time to take these picture...
You guys can see we are enjoying the ice-cream?
It's summer time...

我个人很喜欢黑白照片...
我开始喜欢黑白照片是看了 美国真人秀 " America's next top model "
里面模特儿的黑白照, 常常能突现出他们的个性...
Much stronger than the colour photos...

带有一点点复古...
看黑白照片, 可以让人家觉得有一种莫名的舒服...
可能是因为彩色照片会让人眼花缭吧?
所以很简单...


The face expression when I'm facebook-ing, msn-ing, blogging~

不管喜怒哀乐, 一眼就可以看的出来~

所以我现在拍照, 都不觉得有什么压力...
只要换成黑白照, 就会变成好照片...
让我很满意...
或许以后在部落格上传的照片, 有可能都是黑白照喔!
呵呵~

张惠妹 阿密特

我其实很佩服阿妹这次以" 阿密特 "主题来做专辑...
我对阿密特了解不多...
但是我知道这是阿妹卑南族的名字...
她要以阿密特的身份去呈现音乐...
很多歌都很rock...
歌词更是很赤裸, 很直接的一种表达...
第一次听到阿妹不唱女人那种哀怨情歌, 不过我很喜欢...
但是这张专辑里我最喜欢的歌当然是情歌...
因为我就是爱听情歌~哈哈!

我比较常听[ 灵魂的重量 ]...
很沉重，是藉由 1 个自杀身亡后反悔却再也回不去的灵魂角色，
提出对这个现象的疼惜和省思。
有感于社会上很多人选择以自杀的方式结束生命，
但往往真正的痛苦，却在人走后才开始

还有 [ 掉了 ]...
表达失恋的遗憾吧~
我觉得咯~呵呵!
但是那些很rock 的歌也很不错...听说歌词还有英文的粗口喔~

这张专辑值得推荐~
好音乐就要分享给大家!

Dad's fish

I hate when the whole area was blackout...
There is no electricity, means that I have no computer, no tv....
The most pissed me off was my dad's fish...
The blackout cause the filter cannot work and it keep leaking!
And that really bothering me and my sister...
That because we have to keep mop it!
Arghh~~~

Last Friday balckout cause that situation repeat again...
Once I have out of my patience and call my dad...
and the problem finally solved~
At night, my dad came back and wanted to change the water in aquarium...
All the family members doesn't want to say anything...
we just kept silent...
The reason is we don't want to get involve... and we also don't want to face his "dark" side...
The funny situation is my dad asked my sister Fong to bring the hose at outside there to him...
That time I was in the kitchen, so I didn't heard it clearly...
When Fong came to kitchen, I ask her " what did papa asked you to do? "
She shruged her shoulders....
I asked her again " what you come here for? "
she shruged her shoulder again...
I saw her took the bucket...
I asked her " what you want to do with that? did papa want to use it? "
She shruged her shoulders again in third times~
When she passed it to my dad, my dad said " take the hose!~ " with a heavy sounds...
My mum and I can't stop laughing, but we have to put up our laugh cause scare my dad will angry... hehehehe~

Finally my dad finished the water change with our help...
I always wonder that....
Is his fish was more important than us?
I still remember when I was 12 years old, about 5 years ago...
I didn't purposely have a big move or something and scared the fish...
My dad scolded me and I cried~ ( so embrassing talk this here )
My dad also always scolded my mum that didn't buy some small fish to feed it...
Then my mum started to complaint....
hahaha~

School life start~

After 2 weeks holidays,
school life start again...
Ooohh~
so lazy~
All my friends also said that they didnt want to back to school...
Have to face the school building, teacher, books, instead of computer games, movies, shopping...
hahahaha~

Anyway, don't talk about the past holidays,
coz my holidays is bored...
nothing happend....
Just wake up late, watch movies, and eat, sleep...
normal life~ 宅男 lifestyle~

Today go to school...
All my classmates didn't change at all...
But my English teacher cut her hair short...
Qiute fine~

Most horrible thing is my paper was given to us...
Well....
SUCKS!!!!
got some subjects failed~
Ma~ don''t punish me~

ending the suffer

Been suffered about 4 months...
I think it is enough for me...
Last some post talk about emotional thing,
and I realize that it's been so long I didn't talk about my life~
kind of out of topic of my blog...
I shouldn't bring my emotion to here~
Shit...

Anyway, sorry lor~
I should not share my sadness,
Otherwise some people will think I just want to get attension or think I'm fake or something...

Get ready for my life~
Whole new life~

so far,
I can handle it........ I think?

心底

一整天累积下来的情绪,
多半都一直劝告自己去忘记...
甚至常常劝自己要狠下心去决定...
还傻傻地自言自语,
好像自己分饰成两个角色,
自己对着自己竖起拇指说自己作了一个绝对让自己不后悔的决定...

但是只怕自己的情绪化破坏了这一切的信念,
就连看个爱情电影,
感动画面就会让我心软...
就想今天我看了 [ 麻辣天后宫 ], 主题讨论夫妻之间的告解,
原来经营两个人的关系是非常的不容易...

但是在我睡觉的时候,
这些情绪也在跟我" 陪睡 " 吗?
为什么我明明那么迟睡了,
第二天还是依然那么早醒?
还发现胸口的疼痛...
难道就是被痛醒?

就是明明已经不断的想通了,
但是为什么偏偏还是会被痛醒呢?
难道这就是一种阴影?
还是内心最深处最想传达给自己的一个信息?

很抱歉...
我连想的勇气都没有...
过去的4个月,
痛的感觉已经让我筋疲力尽了,
我不能再这样虐待我自己...
免得将来会后悔, 甚至骂自己笨...

6月11日 ( 或过后 )
见了他后...
希望一切会是全新的开始...

能得回什么?

反复听着梁静茹的 [ 第三者 ]
算是安慰吧~

歌词不仅仅是诉说恋情的第三者...
也意味着感情上的种种问题~

某一些难解的隔阂...
把爱伤害了那多不值得...

没有谁非爱谁不可,
就算变心了也非罪不可赦...

人会因为时间的流逝而变心,
他的工作, 都会在几个地方逗留一段时间在去到别的地方...
这样的工作环境, 一定都难免会喜新厌旧,
在每一个地方都有几个陪伴...
因忍受不了寂寞, 而寻欢...

那些人都是无辜的...
他们也只不过只是听天的安排...
就算他们消失此刻, 我又能得回什么呢?
责怪他们又凭什么呢?

虽然我愤怒但是我还是要明白的...
把过错让他们去背着, 那是不对的...

他正在寻找幸福,
没有谁把谁的幸福没收...
没有谁怪谁...
每段感情都有竞争者...
我不能妒嫉他们的快乐,
虽然我的人生因此有曲折...

失去和离别,
就是生命中的一部分...
我们谁都不能逃脱...

失去了,
只能怪时间是折磨人的,
怪记忆是残酷的,
怪爱情是可怕的...

如果

如果当初我没有拿你的号码,
我们现在就是陌生人...

如果当初我不是在那里打工,
而你也不是在那里工作,
我们就不会见面...

如果当初我拒绝见面,
我们现在就不认识...

如果当初我们只有擦肩而过,
我们就不会有今天...

如果我没有主动跟你打招呼,
我们就不会有沟通...

如果不是丘比特的恶作剧,
我们就不会......

如果没有你... 就没有伤心的我...

一切的如果, 造就没有如果...

习惯

今天早上写一封信息问他...
" Hey... When you come Miri o? "
然后再上学去~

我就是讨厌我这种牡羊座的个性 --- 冲动
明知道他可能不会回复我,
这样又会影响我接下来一段时间的心情...

正如我所说的...
今天我很努力不要去想那事情,
但是我还是无法控制自己...
我还是往不好的方面去想 ( 一直都这样 )
为什么呢?
因为这就是所谓的做最坏的打算...
也算是作好一个心理准备...

考试作答完成后, 应该还有半个小时的时间...
我就一直在想~

他等下应该不会回复我的信息~
他当然已经不在乎我...
我能怎样?
我一定是放下令我失望的手机,
拿起Ipod去厕所一边大号一边听音乐 ( 我的怪僻 )...
上完厕所, 就在电脑前上网...
在不然下午睡觉, 免得想太多而感到疲倦...
醒来后, 再开电脑上网...
看看连续剧...
晚上睡觉前听Ipod 里的固定歌曲...
枕头又要湿了...

想啊想~
忽然觉得这4个月里,
几乎每天都这样...
做的每一件事情都带着痛苦的心情...
相同的, 痛苦时都会做这些事情...
晚上睡觉前泪水证明那一天的伤心,
好像已经是一种习惯了~

果然回来家里,
很承重的心情拿起手机...
正如我今天早上所想的一样...
很自然的拿起了我的Ipod, 然后上厕所...

又重复了这种 " 日常生活习惯 "

原来痛苦也可以是一种习惯...

避开

我常常希望你以后不要在来美里了...
因为我不想再见到你...
但是我常常能感受到我内心最深处,
最纯真的答案却是非常非常非常想见到你...
谁能够了解?

4个月了,
现在心痛的感觉并没有像1个月前那么重...
但是我却很愚蠢的刻意去想到你的事情...
故意在自己的伤口撒盐...
这是为什么呢?
因为我不想忘记你吧~

现在已经是5月尾了,
你告诉我曾告诉我你6月会来美里,
我问你, 你来的时候会不会告诉我?
我很高兴当时你回我说: yes sure loh...

但是经过时间的流逝,
短短的两个月, 你应该忘了吧?
或许你来了, 也不会告诉我了吧?
忘了还有这个人在等你吧?

我想了很久,
如果我再遇到你, 我会是什么样的心情?
紧张? 心痛?
总之, 一定不会有好的感觉...

因为你, 那些我们曾留下脚步的地方,
已成为我的阴影之地...
努力让自己避开...

结束

好多事情...
好多心痛...
好多伤心, 想赶快结束...
想要一切都赶快停止...
我还没有作好完全的心理准备...
还有多少事情, 还有多少的困难还会发生在我身上?

我有好多好多的希望,
却带来给我的都是相反...
一切都是假想敌 !!
一次又一次的灰心, 以为可以有一天麻痹,
但是为什么每天好不容易平静的心又再次沸腾?
好想捂住耳朵, 不想 、 不看 、 不听、不闻不问!!!

好想停止心脏在胸口的冲击
我不想再害怕面对每一天它给我的心情
我还没学会控制我自己
我还没学会这现代人类的爱情
我来不及学会...
导致我在试卷里考得不及格

一切也来得太快了
我还来不及抵挡
强劲的敌人, 我斗不过

每天学着作好心理准备,
面对接下来必须面对的现实...
该来的还是会来
但是我却没有勇气...甚至力气也快没了
太多的渴望都没有办法实现

每天的心情非常烦燥
一直觉得嘴角扬起得特别承重...
或许太久没有真正快乐过...
太多的疑问却害怕得到答案

原来一切都非常不容易...
一切关联到好多伤心事
每一首疗伤情歌都适合我的心情
反复不断地问自己是否太年轻
又不确定这是否只是借口

非常非常非常非常渴望失忆
忘记你的姓名, 忘记你的声音, 忘记我的爱情...
这样, 一切都会结束了...

女人心事 - 陶晶莹

闲来无事就听听Ipod...
563首歌给我选...
不知道什么样的歌是可以代表当时的心情...
随机播放, 就由它为我点播...
于是就按了Shuffle...

这时...
Ipod帮我点了
陶晶莹的 < 女人心事>
对我来说...
又是关于年轻人不懂得爱情 ( 我觉得 )
或是安慰小年纪的失恋...

曾经我也痛苦我也恨过怨过放弃过
在自己的房间里觉得幸福遗弃我
如果没有分离背叛的丑陋
怎么算是真爱过

请你试着相信一爱再爱不要低下头
别怕青春消失就不信单纯的美梦
我在这岸看见你游
为你的坚持感动
你会的
有一天会幸福的...

如果我把这两段歌词当作是一个人在告诉我,
是不是每个人都要经历这些,
我们才能更了解爱情?
而经历这些痛苦,
我们是不是才能更接近真爱?

Fragility Love...

When LOVE come, it is real...
When LOVE leave, it also real...
The person who you hurt, she/he still live in reality...
But you still hurting somebody in your reality life...

True LOVE end by a factual cheat and hurt...
The factual cheat and hurt then lost a true LOVE...
Who will understand a real hurt in one's feeling?
Who will deeply understand about the true feeling of LOVE at first?

LOVE is such frailty and tender...
What you really want in your deep heart?
And who you really LOVE?

Must using Truth and Conscientious...
If not,
your LOVE are just fragility...

Get out~

Dear God,

I had suffering for that person been 3 months,
I'm done!
Why everytime when I wanted to give up and suddenly I saw something that will get involved that person?
Could YOU please help me?
If we can't be together, why can't YOU just cut off the affinity between me and that person?
I'm tired...
I really want to forget~

Are YOU punishing me now?
Until when YOU will stop?
I really tired...
Tell me WHY?
Why the time I try to forget and suddenly that person will ' pop-out '?
Tell me why~~~
I've tried so hard!
My heart want freedom so much!
I don't want! I don't want! I don't want!!!!

I just want that person will be happy forever with boyfriend,
Please help me to stay away from that relationship,
please help me by don't let anything about that person to appear in front of me...
Do you hear me, God?

為我好...my own good

I'm just 17,
All things came towards me...
The bad things was far more than good things~
They said 18 is the age to say goodbye to kids life...
Then was all the bad things is the ' test ' or a ' trial ' for me before become an adult?
Is God helping or punishing me?
Tell me why?

I always comfort myself that I was too young to think about this relationship~
But I just can't control my feel that to sad...
I really can't breath~
My heart was so pain~

May Sim, as you said...
Send me to hospital, please?

I really don't know how...
I'm too young?
If I can find the answer when I grow up,
I wish I could go to future...

Why this happen to me?
will this happen again in future?
Was it a lesson?
Was it a messege from God for me to change myself?
If I couldn't get the messege,
Is this situation will fated to happen again next time?

是不是真的要到未来才知道答案?
而如果对爱情的执着, 難道就会换来忏悔?
就跟 勉強來的感情是不會有幸福 的道理一樣?

I want CHEER UP~

It's been 3 months I'm suffering for someone!
I'm done!
I want to cheer up...
But how?

My heart was very very hurt~
I wish I didn't meet that person!
My life completely changed!
I'm so angry, I want to kill somebody!
Arghhh~~~!!!!

How long again I will suffering about this?
It's... soming to me so fast....
I haven't ready to ' welcome ' them...

Today is Labour day...
I go out with my family...
There was so my people,
and I was squeezing between people,
but why I still felt so lonely?

I really want my heart can relax and free...
who can help me?

I guess I like someone~
I fall in love with someone that I shouldn't love to...

complicated

Everything went wrong...
It almost destroy my life...
God!
All things never becomes good or better...
No matter in friendship, family, love or school...everything!!!

I felt I'm lonely...
I couldn't find my happy...
I'm stuck! I'm lost!
I'm tired...
I'm scared and panic...
I'm no dare to face the reality...

I can't breath...

not lazy...

Last year I always update my blog...
But now I'm not lazy to blog...
I also not busy that no time to blog...
I just not in mood around these month...
I don't know why...
All bad thing come toward me...
Haiz...

So I just don't want to share about my sad thing on blog...
Really spoiled de...
I really tired...
Hope can lose my bad and sad memories...

HELL ~~

I really want to scream!!!
ARGHH~~~

I do admire those who got very simple minded...
Because they will not think about the damn shit annoyed things...
Haiz...
Stress keep coming toward me,
what should I do...

我挡!! ~~

Like living in hell these days...

Special to May Sim...

可能你太年轻...
不知道大人在想什么...
或许你年龄根本就不了解他到底要的关系是什么,
累积的经验还不够所以有很多任性的要求...

你总是在无所事事的时候想到他...
甚至幻想和他在一起...

眼泪掉落的那一瞬间,
在脸颊留下的温度, 就是这么真实...
你比任何人都还要清楚, 你心痛全都是因为他...

你总是扮演坚强和勇敢...
每天都想着原因,
很多个为什么, 控制着冲动, 不敢面对他给的答案...
一切的疑问, 一切的怀疑...
你可以当作是他不想伤害你的谎言吗?
还是你全心全意地相信他?
你对他的爱情...
你坚持的和你相信的...这些都值得吗?
我相信你作的选择, 永远都不会让你后悔...

就不要让自己狼狈地流泪...
因为希望总是在你的周围守护着...
对抗你所面对的的荆棘和障碍...
追求你的幸福...

May...this is specially for you...
Maybe all I write was not right like what you think...

希望你能得到属于你自己的幸福...

My birthday...

17 years old ler...
I will miss my 16 years old moments...
My friend said make a wish in birthday...
But I don't believe with that...
I just want it be a "First Day" for me...

I don't know what the meaning for birthday lar...
For me it's just like normal day...
But the Happy things was, even only one person tell me "Happy Birthday", I will be very happy...

Happy Birthday To ME!!!
I will be the first one...

Silvester 1 year old !!

It's almost 1 month...
I almost forgot to post about my little brother's birthday!
His 1 year birth!

Just a few while Silvester already 1 year old liao...
I'm also getting older...( cry )

The journey of Silvester Kong

60 earth hour

Switched off the light for one hour just now...
That got a promotion that switch off the light for one hour to save our earth and environment...
Because of global warming...

I do switched off the light but my neighbour don't...
Ai ya...
Just turn off ma...
So easy...

But I didn't switched all the electrics...
I turn off the light but still switch the television on coz my mother want to watch it...

haiz...
So tired to think about all shit things...
I wish I can turn off myself until all the things solve or until I forget evrything...
Really want to escape from this dark REAL world!!

Software sucks...

I love to watch movies...
All kind of movie as long as it is worth, interesting to watch then I will watch it...
So...I have a software that is ppstream which is a software for watch movie...
That software is good, everyday got update and add new movies...
Not only movies, the variety shows I also love to watch...
But now...
I can't watch ppstream...
What the hecky is that....
I tried to download again from the web but I can't install it or even I can't download it...
OMG!!!!

I want to watch movie!!!!
ARGHH!!!!!

Finding Idea...

Really long time didn't update my blog except the previous blog was talking about the movie...That's excluded...

I just no idea want to talk about what...
I found that I'm not that talkative or busybody like last year...
Am having pressure with homeworks, study because I am the student who sitting for SPM this year...

So now I'm finding some idea to make my blog interesting and simple...
I think just a piece of photo will make the blog beautiful...
I personaly love Jessica's blog...
Her blog is beautiful!!!

But recently I don't have take too much of photos...
Because of the memory fulled, although it has 4GB...
So I want to take some more interesting picture and upload it...
So everybody look it will feel happy...including me...

The Little Rascals - cutest ever!

It's been 3-4 years I have looking for this movie...
I don't know the movie name but I just remember the scene and described and google it...
Finally I found it!
" The Little Rascals "

They are soooooo cute!!!
No matter their voice, their movement, their laugh...
I just think they are cutest!
I wish I could have a child like them!

Examing

The exam is really suffering my life!!!
Whole question I left it blank...
All my mind about blank...
Ideas gone...

Damn !!!
Am not complaining about these...
Just give me some times!
Shit... I'm talking excuses...

What I'll going to do with the blank paper?
Sorry...My dear teachers.

2月24日

Wish we can smile always...

Tomorrow Silvester's 1 year old birthday according to chinese calender...

难过又怎样??

I love this sentence

I love this sentence...

失望 也是一种幸福 因为有所期待 所以会失望

Disappointed was a kind of happiness
Because how more you hope for it, you will get disappoint...

I think this was very meaningful to me...

For me...
If I'm disappointed with something, but at least I know the truth...
But if I always hoping for something happen...
Even if really happen, it doesn't in my expect...

( sorry... I really don't know how to translate it well... )

Valentine's Day

Just back from school...
Kinda funny, w'all have school on Valentines Day...
All single friends was complaining themself don't have boyfriend or girlfriend...
While friends were couple are celebrating now, I think...

Are they going to the fast food to celebrate their "candle light dinner"
Bring the candles there and eat with the fast food?
The chickens and burgers replace high class beefsteak,
The Cola replace wine and Cheers with the paper cup?
Hahaha...
( These are the jokes from my English teacher )

The way back from school...
Friends have blessing me, " Happy Valentine's Day "
Suddenly really want to roll my eyes and show them, coz I'm single, how to celebrate it?

I open the google, and the O shape become Love shape, and there's a couple of birds perch on that....
Wow... all about love...

For me, I don't care anyway...
I've been lonely on Valentine's Day 17 years...HAHA!
I'm just curious what my dad do to my mum today...hehehe...

Anywayz...
Happy Valentine's Day to y'all who get couple...

No idea...

Really don't know what should write on blog...
Was that because nothing happen on my daily life?
That must be very bored...
Yes.... it is!

No idea...no idea...
Hope that will not happen when I'm writing my essay...
Next Monday will have my oral test...
Hope everything will be fine with me and Jing Ying...

Next Next week will have our Form 5 very first time E-X-A-M!!!
jeng! jeng! jeng~~

OMG~

Reality

What should I do now?
Does the reality really do mean to us?
While the dreams was too short?

Everytime I wake up from my sweet dream,
I always want to sleep again to continue my dream,
Coz I really don't want to face the reality...
I'm not a realist, but now I have to learn to be it...

Because I realized that...
If you think something too perfect,
but when the situation is not on your expect,
you will be more disappoint...

As a realist,
always think about realities probabilities to have a mentality preparation...
But I always think too much of probabilities...
That's why I'm so tired of these...
Someone who has destroy my happy life...
Now I have to forget as best as I could!

Chinese new year

Just back from Sibu yesterday,
Tired and sleep but didn't update my blog...
Coz it is really a long time didn't update liao...

well...
My chinese new year was celebrated at Sibu,
I went there on 23 Jan,
You guys don't know how interesting I live there...

Now still feel dizzy coz been sat in the car whole day...
So, I will describe next time.
Want to sleep ...
Zzzz....

Rubbish

Bla bla bla...
I have no idea to write about what...

Sometimes not just only busy...
I'm also lazy...
Just like now I don't know what I want to write about this post or I don't know what I'm writing about... -_-

I just don't want my blog still appear the same thing...
But now I'm writing the bullshit and rubbish...

ARGHHHH~~!!
Please forgive me to express my pressure here...

Silvester's new hair...(selfcuts)

Last few days my mum said bie's (pronounce- ba"by") hair was so long didn't cut...
But my mum also don't want to take him to the saloon because sure ahbie will move...

So I decided to cut it myself....

Before...

Shocked when first cut...

I really had no idea to cut his hair...
So my mum helped me...

POOFFF~~ Finally become a handsome man...

Grandpa

It's been a year....
I already heard about my grandpa got amnesia...
That year I was sat for my PMR, so I don't have so much time to think about that...
Until the Chinese New Year 2008 then my aunt back from kampung and told me that my granpa passed away...

I don't think too much about my granpa that time too...
Just think that it is normal coz a man will be going through 生, 老, 病, 死 ( lives, old, illness, death )

Yesterday I have so much of pressure...
It almost make me crazy!
But...when I look at my grandma, I suddenly cracked up and cried...

I just think that my granma was a sturdy woman.
Even though granpa left her, but she still can live herself and still believe my granpa...

My granpa died on the first day of chinese new year,
my aunt told me after 1 week,
When I think that day I still play there and very happy,
really felt sorry for him...

I love you granpa!!!

I HATE !!!!

Wow wow wow !!!

I always feeling stress around these day...
The most thing is my studies...
Why the teachers give us so many homeworks?
My God! The place where I sat always been calling by teachers to answer their questions...
I had no idea!

The SPM is coming...
I felt like my brain still blank...
I hate this and that!

Please!
Stop let me think about you...
Who are you?
You just a little little thing that appear at the corner of my life...
Stop being arrogant!

ARGHH!!!!
Always stress to think about these...
So f*cking tired!

Alex's Family

Been watched Taiwanese show [Gossip Queen ] host by Li Ching
Just watched was the topic about Daddy Day Care...
That's talk about how the Daddies cares about their babies...

Seems the 4 families was very happy...
They really cares their babbies well!
One of the families that is my favourite...


He has a Boy...
I heard from his wife that Alex's son, Ryder.
From the first day Ryder born, Alex update his blog evryday Ryder 1 year-old...

Really felt they are a happy and cute family...




Alex - Daddy
Lee Yong Xian - Mummy
Ryder - Son

First Day...

Today was the first day go to school...
Actually I didn't feel like today is the first day...
Felt like normal, seems like we never have our holidays...

I was very nervous about our teachers...
Just as expected...
The teachers changed!
The moral teacher was very strict with us!!

The first day most teachers were started teaching already...
Boring!!
But, I also have no choice,
SPM! kokhua!
Please be ready all the time!

One thing I also confused is...
I forgot my another msn ID..!
Somebody help?

Student's lives back!

Tomorrow start school...
*sigh...
I have cut my hair short, cut my nail...
Yup...all because of the school rules...
Really want to rebel against that shit!

A new year...
Getting up to Form 5, prepare for SPM...
*sigh....

Yesterday was my last day working as a cashier...
Miss them a lot!
Thanks them gave me sweet memories...

That's fine...
I can having a lot time to relax...
A lot time to update my blog...
December was the least post...

Have to go prepare for tomorrow...
Bye...