I'm sorry

After had " war " in my family, I started to thinking what will be with my family like after a few years?
The word " betray " had been " born " or been " created " then changed the definition of " Family ", I do think he don't have the qualification to judge my attitude that I done on my sister, Fong just now...

Her attitude started to change since last year? Since I found she make friend that quite close with her friend which I think her friend's personality is kinda bitchy...
But I can't stop her liberty to make friends...
But since that she know to say " Dirty words ", there is not gonna to happen on my principle.
So do my attitude, changed. Be not to strict to my sisters...

But today, Fong just get on my nerves, make me get into MAD!!

Her attitude -
She fight back when mum scholding her false, her attitude shown to younger sisters, and she just pull youngest brother out from her room but when my brother just sit in front of her room door, she stubborn to close the door...

I can't just sit there and see what she doing with little brother, come on 15 years old and 2 years old...
So I walk foward and try to stop her, but she insist want to close the door, and I pushed the door, She screamed... Screamed like hell like a witch and say " I have to do my homework! "
I can't endure and raise up my hand and hit her...
The " war " begun ~

End up my hand was twisted and so pain like my bone is broken because the painful that I made on her...
I cried...
I cried not because the pain, is the pain in my heart...
I just think that maybe I got the wrong way to behave their discipline...
But I do happy that she know to protect herself when she tires to fight back...

I'm kinda hurt of something happen around me when it turns bad...
Bad until I said out from my mouth " I hate this family... "
But I do care about my sisters and brother, I think I'm the eldest and I should responsible on them... Their innocent, they should not be on this way on this ages...

I'm sorry... for everything...

Sylvester's sick

He was sick, but still active...
I thought he recover already since he started jump, run, play, even cubit me until enough pain for me to shout~ Haha!
But he still need to eat medicine to recover his fever...
poor baby la~

Anyway,
I missing when he is about 7 to 8 months? when he still learning to stand up...
At that time, when I carrying him, he will very quiet and 乖乖~

Now he is 1 year old and 10 months, when I try to hug him or want to play with him,
he will just avoid from me and say " 鼻要~~ 鼻要~~ " ( No~ No~ )
He is just cocky about he know to run and jump... Even clim up to cupboard, need to watch him to prevent fall down to cause any accident...
Haha!

Love you, Sylvester, my brother...

Thai Movie = Jerk ? ............. 机车 -_-|||

" You are arrogant..! so jerk! You so detailed about Thailand movie, then you better go become AhGua... There is nothing to be change in this world if you dissapear!! "

When I saw this comment, I actually not mad at all...
I just keep laughing...
You know what? I do think he is stupid...

I'm arrogant? About what? Call me jerk somemore?
Everytime I watch movie, whether it is nice or not nice, I just want to share it through my blog...
Come on, call me arrogant just because I'm detailing the Thailand movie?
Where is the " in detail " please tell me, I want to know what cause you think I'm jerk?

Ask me to go Thailand become Ahgua just because Thailand movie is suit to my taste?
Let me tell you, on this way you tell me, this is kind a discrimination against Thailand...

What's wrong with Thailand movies?
Anyone have the same brain with him? Or same opinion with him?

I still want to laugh when I see his comment,...
Anyway,

Thank you~

Best of Time

Thailand movie really really suit to my movie taste!
I think Thailand love stories movies was sweet, touch, funny, romantics...
I was enjoyed watching this Thailand movie, a new movie...

All about first love, first love hard to forget, huh?
It is...

I recommend Best of Time



初恋, 每个人都有
但不是每个人都有缘分和初恋走到尽头,
初恋, 很难忘
但是终究都会忘记, 只有忘记得快和慢的分别而已...

Tuition teacher

A very first time I became a tuition teacher which I teach English for primary four
I never expact I would be teacher and teaching the students... Hehe!

When I was interview the teacher there told me that the students is naughty and ask me to handle it with fierceness and cannot smile...
I think " what? My smile is atrractive ( ngegehnya ), but I can't smile?"
And I thought today I will yelling to the students and hit the table to make them scare or what...

But exactly not same with what I expact...
The children are quite easy to handle, and my voice is loud, enough to " scare " them... Haha!
Actually I'm exactly not allowed to smile or what, because maybe the stuent might think you are not strict then will climb on you! Haha!

Anyway, I think I've done a great job and the students seems like me~
Hehe!

500 days of Summer

I love the line they used for this movie
" This is not a love story, this is a story about love..."

For me, this movie was quite boring when I watch at first...
Because I think about what they trying to tell us?
the " day " ( number ) keep forward and backward...
Was a bit confusing me, maybe I didn't watch it focusly... Haha!



似乎在女主角眼睛里看到自己的我,
就是那样... 嘴巴说出觉得自己不在乎一样...
以为什么都像说一样容易...
一切, 就是这样发生...
一旦发生在自己身上, 才了解原来痛怎么"写"...

500天, 也可以有故事...

花木兰 Mulan

A very nice movie with lagend that I believe this is widely known but not only chinese...
I do watched Disney Channel, Mulan in cartoon version,
the message from both is the same, but the story go on is different...
Of course cartoon is kind a ridiculous...

Well, I think this is a movie which can let us to learn about the filial obedience, brave, confident and love shown by Mulan...
Especially for women, Mulan charateristics could be their inspirations...



Theme Song - 木兰情


From my favourite singer - Sun yan zi

" 你们怕死吗?? "
一个女儿身这样质问你, 你怎么回答?

Movies talk

I was just finish my SPM in December 14,
After that I spent all my time with PPstream...
That's mean I've spent my time with watching movies...
All kind of movie I willing to watch because I think some movie are really nice and enjoyable~

I enjoy watch comedy, love, horror ( the most ), action, etc

Some movie are kind of litearatery art movie which I loved to watch and learning the meaningful of life or something which what message that movie want to tell us...
I am enjoying in watching movie due to this way...
Understanding what they really want to tell us...
I do believe movies could tell us the moralities, I enjoying these...

By the way, blogging about movies also the way to spreading the movies to people,
the way to tell people our comment about movies...

I quite admire about L²'s movies talk
His this blog was really a good way and I should not selfish to telling the comment from mine to the movies, as I watch a lot of movies to spend my day, I could watch 2 - 3 movies per day...

Check out my movies talk posts in kokhua...

Car driving lesson

Today I have to get up early in the morning because I need to attend the driving lesson which at 10 am...

First thought I think driving lesson is easy,
But I was totally wrong, it should be hard!
The most hard to me is the clutch, turning...

Ah Tack which they called is my SIFU keep say " Turn, relax! change gear! "
I really nervous and the car engine stopped 2 times due to I released the clutch in sudden...

The strength from me to control the steering and the break...
Scared~

The rebound

I think it is a nice movie, quite warm and sweet movie...
Where I found that there is nothing wrong at all in a relationship with a person's ages... Why they so much care about that?
Am not just saying, I have the experience...

Anyway, I love this movie because some part of scene are quite close to what I want to do in future, can probably name it "Dreams"

The romantic scene which I do really wanna do with my love, and the city which I really want to been!
Self backpack to travel around the worlds also the things I always want to do, hope I can acheive it if I could acheive my future career which is flight attendant...
Adopt a child? Can consider it...

It end up with happy, both of them hold their hand together...


爱情真的会在乎对方的年龄吗?
这样的在乎, 真爱会被遭到质疑吗?
各自的梦想, 因为生活上无谓的需求而悲观实现
值不值得, 在于两人在爱情中互相扶持的力量... 感觉最重要

梅兰芳

久仰了, 梅兰芳
只听过 [ 梅兰芳 ] 这部电影, 听来觉得这部电影好像蛮有影响力...

戏如人生,人生如戏
不知这句适不适合用在这部电影...
我其实看了这部电影, 只是觉得是一部文艺片, 应该是要很仔细地看...

梅兰芳的影响力果然大, 男生扮演女生唱京剧
在那个时代果然就如现代般, 可是他们更重视京戏的表现

比较能感动我的是,
个个都是刚强的外表, 内心的阴柔,
是否现代的艺人也一样, 就像里面的对白...
" 梅兰芳就是出自于他的孤单, 谁要是毁了他这份孤单, 谁就是毁了梅兰芳 "

梅兰芳的历史感染了艺术界, 值得崇仰...





Mei LanFang is a movie which great literatary movie,
the Opera artistic could really have great influence to the world,
looking strong but the softness in deep heart,
satisfying the audience with achieving and make opera known to the nternational, but have to abandon his love...

" Mei LanFang success is came from his loneliness, who be with him, that's mean she detroying Mei LanFang "

Goodbye & Hello

Goodbye to 2009, Hello to 2010!!
There's really so much things happened on me in 2009
Most is really unhappy...
For conlusion, 2009 is the year which I drops my tears the most since I based from my memory... Haha!

From the last day of 2008, I also got posted the same title of this post...
I read it again, and My dreams for 2009 didn't achieved...
I hope more happiness come to me but totally opposite!
All was just sadness...
Although there was so much First time in 2008, but also the same in 2009...

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• Relationship

Bercinta la, putus cinta la, bercinta again la, putus cinta again la...
First time tried what couple will do when couple-ing la~
But actually I also want thank to these relationship that keep me strong...
Although I do really suffer for them quite long, knowing how much power the love is...
I'm learnt many things from the relationship...
The painful turns to mistakes and turns again into experiences which make me more strong and see the fact or reality more clearly...
Plus, it make me able to judge people in good and the bad...

• Friendship

In 2009 my friendship was not going smooth too...
I can say that " they " or " she " betrayed me...
How was that mean she betrayed me?
Well, her name I cannot just say it out here, so I just called her " Moo~ "
I look her as a good friend and she always will tell me about what she think about her situation, that kind of friend that could confess about everything to you...
Can say best friend la for that time~
She separated my secret to teachers! For the teachers that she be familiar with!
Haiz... I never blame her anyway, just think that someone cannot be like that... No morality...
Anyway now I also don't know what thing I done on her make her hate me and no more talk to me?
I also less friend liao la, all instigate by her, like kena hypnotize by her...
Haiz...

• Family

Family a...
Should I talk about this at here?
Just Daddy like betrayed this family lor~
Hey, you know I know, No need mention liao.. Hehe~
But in fact is my mum misunderstand him then now peaceful~
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These three relationship is very very very important in my whole life!
I take a very important attention to these three relationship...
But all get into trouble on the same time! While on the year which I'm took my SPM!!
Really hard to get through all those problems...
That's why now I really really really cherish when my heart is free because I really really really sick and tired of the painful in heart!

Well,
I also really really really thank to the hardness,
it makes me stronger and stronger when facing the troubles...
In other hand, there's not totally that worst for me in 2009...

In the year 2010, the year which I starting my whole new life - steps to the society!
Maybe this year more hard for me, I need 求贵人!!!