Dad's fish

I hate when the whole area was blackout...
There is no electricity, means that I have no computer, no tv....
The most pissed me off was my dad's fish...
The blackout cause the filter cannot work and it keep leaking!
And that really bothering me and my sister...
That because we have to keep mop it!
Arghh~~~

Last Friday balckout cause that situation repeat again...
Once I have out of my patience and call my dad...
and the problem finally solved~
At night, my dad came back and wanted to change the water in aquarium...
All the family members doesn't want to say anything...
we just kept silent...
The reason is we don't want to get involve... and we also don't want to face his "dark" side...
The funny situation is my dad asked my sister Fong to bring the hose at outside there to him...
That time I was in the kitchen, so I didn't heard it clearly...
When Fong came to kitchen, I ask her " what did papa asked you to do? "
She shruged her shoulders....
I asked her again " what you come here for? "
she shruged her shoulder again...
I saw her took the bucket...
I asked her " what you want to do with that? did papa want to use it? "
She shruged her shoulders again in third times~
When she passed it to my dad, my dad said " take the hose!~ " with a heavy sounds...
My mum and I can't stop laughing, but we have to put up our laugh cause scare my dad will angry... hehehehe~

Finally my dad finished the water change with our help...
I always wonder that....
Is his fish was more important than us?
I still remember when I was 12 years old, about 5 years ago...
I didn't purposely have a big move or something and scared the fish...
My dad scolded me and I cried~ ( so embrassing talk this here )
My dad also always scolded my mum that didn't buy some small fish to feed it...
Then my mum started to complaint....
hahaha~

School life start~

After 2 weeks holidays,
school life start again...
Ooohh~
so lazy~
All my friends also said that they didnt want to back to school...
Have to face the school building, teacher, books, instead of computer games, movies, shopping...
hahahaha~

Anyway, don't talk about the past holidays,
coz my holidays is bored...
nothing happend....
Just wake up late, watch movies, and eat, sleep...
normal life~ 宅男 lifestyle~

Today go to school...
All my classmates didn't change at all...
But my English teacher cut her hair short...
Qiute fine~

Most horrible thing is my paper was given to us...
Well....
SUCKS!!!!
got some subjects failed~
Ma~ don''t punish me~

ending the suffer

Been suffered about 4 months...
I think it is enough for me...
Last some post talk about emotional thing,
and I realize that it's been so long I didn't talk about my life~
kind of out of topic of my blog...
I shouldn't bring my emotion to here~
Shit...

Anyway, sorry lor~
I should not share my sadness,
Otherwise some people will think I just want to get attension or think I'm fake or something...

Get ready for my life~
Whole new life~

so far,
I can handle it........ I think?

心底

一整天累积下来的情绪,
多半都一直劝告自己去忘记...
甚至常常劝自己要狠下心去决定...
还傻傻地自言自语,
好像自己分饰成两个角色,
自己对着自己竖起拇指说自己作了一个绝对让自己不后悔的决定...

但是只怕自己的情绪化破坏了这一切的信念,
就连看个爱情电影,
感动画面就会让我心软...
就想今天我看了 [ 麻辣天后宫 ], 主题讨论夫妻之间的告解,
原来经营两个人的关系是非常的不容易...

但是在我睡觉的时候,
这些情绪也在跟我" 陪睡 " 吗?
为什么我明明那么迟睡了,
第二天还是依然那么早醒?
还发现胸口的疼痛...
难道就是被痛醒?

就是明明已经不断的想通了,
但是为什么偏偏还是会被痛醒呢?
难道这就是一种阴影?
还是内心最深处最想传达给自己的一个信息?

很抱歉...
我连想的勇气都没有...
过去的4个月,
痛的感觉已经让我筋疲力尽了,
我不能再这样虐待我自己...
免得将来会后悔, 甚至骂自己笨...

6月11日 ( 或过后 )
见了他后...
希望一切会是全新的开始...