Love you till the end

I just wanna tell you Nothing you don't want to Hear
All I Want is for you to Say
Ohh why don't you just Take me where I've Never been before
I know you want to Hear me catch my Breath
I Love You tell the End
I Love You till the End
I Love You till the End...
-Thanks B

A whole new start with this song...

well psychological prepare

Am not done well in my paper so far...
Quite sad and disappointed, most geram is my careless mistake...
And I know I'm not done well in my BM and BI paper...
Probably won't get A or even B...
I know my Mathematics I done many careless mistakes...

Now having psychological prepare by keep comfort myself there is nothing to care about the results of SPM...
But maybe I'm under a stress condition, that's why i really vexing about these...

Be honest... I just don't want to see Moo~'s cocky face when she really get a good results or better than mine...
And my parents given me so much of hope, it is so stress to achieve them...

However...
I really really really done my best on exam,
even I don't have A, i really do need B or even C...

Just regret why don't I hardwork last time and kill my laziness...

1 day to go -- Tomorrow is SPM !!

Last night I spent all my time with my friends for study group at koh sing's place...
They studied komsas BM while I was studying my sejarah...

Sejarah is sooooo HARD, especially hard to memorise it!
From day to night,
I've studied non-stop at night, they studying English and I still reading sejarah!
My friend slept in front of me but I still studying my sejarah!!

" don't stress out, if you really tired, please go sleep..." Said koh sing,
But I still insist want to continue my study even I really sleepy...
because I totally nervous breakdown about coming SPM!!

Well well...
At 3.30 a.m., I woke koh sing from her sleep and said " Hey, I sleep beside you..."
Then I woke up at 9 on this morning...
After brushed my teeth, I continue my study again, until I came back home...

Arghhh!!!!!

2 days to go -- Full time

2 days left...
It's mean that I still have only 48 hours for me to prepare all the thing...
Sure I need to study again and I have to make sure all the thing like pens, pencils, ruler, calculator, bla bla bla...

First day is BM paper and Sejarah paper 1, secone day is English paper and Sejarah paper 2...
Honestly, I really nervous...
Like that " Moo~ " said : If you prepare enough, what you scaring for?
ya la... She's right...

Just now my mum have an appointment with her friends to go shopping and ask me to look after for my brother...
And I said " Hell NO!! I have to study!! "

Well...
So long, I have to stop here...
Tadaaaa~~~

3 days to go -- To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow

Arghhh!!!!
Last night I was so tired and slept at 11.30 p.m. , then I was set alarm about 1 a.m. to wake me up to continue my study...
I set 1 a.m. , in case if I want to sleep again, I'm sure that I will off the alarm, so I set again the alarm in between 1.30 a.m., 2 a.m., 2.30 a.m.... But I'm still didn't wake!!!

Ohh... My sejarah ~~
I need to know them well!!

This morning I woke up but there's nobody in the house...
My family went to restaurant to have their breakfast...
Ok, I was waiting for them to " tapao " for me, But then they came back with nothing!
Just a word " Forgot " from my mum...

Then I beg my mum to bring me went to restaurant again to treat me eat...
Hahaha!!
I don't want to waste my time so I brought my notes to the restaurant while waiting for my food to be serve...

There's only 3 days left for me to study...
I have to memorise Sejarah, Komsas BM and English Literature...
I've not allowed to sleep tonight!!!

4 days to go -- Slow ??

I didn't update my blog yesterday!!
Aduhh... I missed up 1 day, but the " 5 " is such a beautiful number...

Anyway, it is passed...
It's mean that the time is passing so fast and now is 4 days left!!
The first day of SPM is BM and Sejarah paper...
Today I had studied from 11 a.m. to 4 p.m. , NON-STOP!! But I realised I just studied only 1 chapter!! My God! Read + Understand + answer question = 5 hours???

NO!!!
The time is not waiting for us...
I have to fast fast fast!!!

I have to continue my study, Before my laziness come to hug me, hmm... they love me so much !
I cannot slow, I have to study as much as I can!

6 days to go -- restu ilmu

Today is the last day I met with the teacher, after that I will have my SPM on next Wednesday...
All hopes was given by teachers and Principle told the rules of SPM...
The subjects teachers gave the tips for us to study...
Lastly, We all shake hand with teachers of course with Principle...
Principle was so sayang students, she guve a big hug to the girls...
What a touching moment, I saw my classmates cried~
But I'm not.... Hehe!

After that, I was buzy with taking pictures with my classmates and my teachers!

 My Chemistry Teacher - Miss Ivy Foo

My Lovely English Teacher - Mdm Christina Lau

  My Physics and Additional Mathematics Teacher - Mr Wong Yiik Hoon

The most optimistic Bahasa Melayu teacher -- Puan Ratnawati

The best Mathematics teacher -- Mdm Anne Kiu

" Wish you all the best ah... Try all your best a... kokhua! "
All the wishes by my teachers, almost the same... Hehe!

7 days to go -- 1 week to go...

Today I go to school, I planned wanted to study and don't want to get influence by my classmates...
But I can't do it... Haha!
Today is the last day we sit in our class,
I brought my camera to school, and took many pictures and keep it as sweet memories...

This whole day, I think like why teachers no teaching today?
Like forget about SPM, or they think we not take importance of SPM?
I DO!!!

Today I was study biology and sejarah...
Arghh !!!
Hard to memorise all those notes!
Now what I have to do is keep read the Tips based from their discuss and research...

Well, I think no sleep for tonight...
Have to study biology as I need to give back Zaimah's reference book...
TADA~~

8 days to go -- Self- study

Today I did'nt go to school,
as I heard my friend all stay at home to study
Will I ?

Now it is 8 days left,
For now on, I just read all the pages of reference book...
When SPM, I just doing my best...
Hopefully miracles could happen...

Now I should motivate myself by thinking my future...
Aduhh~~
Now all I need to focus is study study study!

9 days to go -- Here we go...

Wow! Day by day, it is the day to have my SPM!
9 days! with single digit!
Suddenly felt the SPM is SO close!

What should I do?
I just non-stop reading books,
But meanwhile chatting with classmates today...
Yeah~ I'm talkative person...

Everytime I read the books, notes given by teacher or get from text books and reference books, but when I saw the question, I completely blank...
Just like Chemistry exercise gave by my teacher today...
Still so many question that need to ask my teacher...

Hmm...
Today I'm emo emo emo!
Because of my problem la~
I keep avoid to mention those shit thing...

Focus to my study!
PROVE!!!

10 days to go -- Relax ??

Finally I can online after I called TMNET service centre and asked for help...
After followed his direction, it's finally works!
I don't want to miss up the day to update my blog...

Well, today is Sunday!
Mum woke me up to and ask me to go out for breakfast...
While waiting my sister to finish her bath, I use the time to read the books...
My mind still blur blur but still force to read!
Haha~

In afternoon, honestly I didn't touch my books at all!
I really really want to rest and relax!

I knew it has no time for me even to stare blankly!
And sometimes I knew that I could not get the top results
Very upset because of these, and it make me stress out!

Just try my best...

11 days to go -- continuosly

Woke up at 9 in the morning today...
It is quite late for me, as I din't wake on midnight even I have set the alarm in two different times!
I have to bath, eat and clean my room, even now still messy...
It's been 11 am now! And the stupid line was work now and I quickly update my blog... hehe


I wanted to study non-stop, if not my laziness will start to "attack" me!
What for today? Physics again?
hmm~ will study till what time?
Non-stop 5 hours? 6? 7?


As hope today will not seduce by the " media massa " in my house!
Clean up my mind of thinking nonsence!

Fuhh~~
I have to continue my study now,
But let me finish my ice cream first! Huhu~~

12 days -- " Steal " the times

Don't know what happen to the line...
These few days the line always losing its connection...
That's why I can't update my blog yesterday...

Well,
as times flies, today is the 12 days to go for my SPM!
I always use the time that could probably get me as much as knowledge into my brain!
Such...
I get up at midninght to study, I go to school early and study in the class,
When recess time I brought my books down to read,
When teacher was writing words on the blackboard, I was reading even it only 3 minutes!
When waiting for the car, I took out my book and read read read!

My moral teacher ask us that why we attend for school as many of my classmate absent for the school on thses few days...
Hmm...
I have to get up to go to school because sure I will be lazy at home as so many " seduction " from of cause computer ( internet ), television, and phone ( sms )... Hahaha

Can't wait for " Merdeka " ~!

14 days to go -- 2 weeks !!

I keep blame myself that keep sleepy in class,
sure cannot let anything get inside to my mind!
I still keep looking for the simple or tips or secret for exam...

Most serious is my biology...
I keep read but nothing to understand!
My biology sucks...

I keep saying " I will not touch Bio anymore after my SPM! I will not touch Add math anymore after my SPM! I will not touch..... ARGHH!!!"

stressing! Sejarah and moral also need to keep read and memorise it...
Should I get memory plus pil?
hmm...

I probably should keep read, keep doing past year paper
or even searching for prediction from candidates...

Lol...
expressing stress with count down for SPM~

15 days to go -- keep it up !!

" Wah~~ you've chenge your name already a? why suddenly become so hardworking? "
Suk Ping asked me as I was sitting beside her today,

" You too mar~ " I replied...
" If we can hardwork like this earlier then will be good! "

Haha...
It is useless to talk about this again...
Only 15 days left, time is running up fast!
I keep take the time to study study study!
Almost want cry ...
This is what I have to " pay" !

Keep doing chemistry, Add math, biology, physics...
Arghh~

Have to sleep now, later have to wake up midnight to study again...
To avoid disturb from family...
They noisy with watching Tv, brother cries, sister plays...

have to study at midnight...
Tadaa~~

Tomorrow 14 to go...
wuwuwuwu~~

16 days to go -- Hopeless ?

" 16 days to go " have wrote by me on the blackboard,
have to remind ourself that SPM is getting nearer!

" Haaaaaaaaaa? only 16 days left to sit for SPM ??? "
Please la 38 girl, you just know about that a?
how many days you want to expect?
Actually I'm nervous about the days is less by every minutes!

Today I'm doing my biology revision...
Wow! the words came out from my mouth...
" What the hell they talking about?? "

Hmm...
As the students who was so lazy to care about my study,
Hopeless!

Fiuuu~~

17 days to go -- late ?

Am doing revision for form 4 in reference books...
Always think about the days left that only with 18!
I think that is late for me to really can memorize everything into my brain...

Well...
Kinda upset for sure because I have forgot everything, I didn't really concern about my study...
Wondering why there are so many hard condition towards me all day long in this year...
I'm regreting!
You guys never know the hardness cannot make you completely concerntrate on study or everything...
Probably that is my excuses due to my attitude?

What will totally cover my laziness?
Haiz...
Have to force myself!!